Starting to Feel Down

I'm in a "difficult mood" this morning. I don't quite feel right in the head. Might see a counsellor at university later today.

Might be pissed off about comments for the next pagan meet here in Newcastle. Remember earlier this month went to one and no one turned up? Well I found out that folk did turn up after I left. Grrr. I am so fucking annoyed!

But I wonder if that's just the trigger. Didn't get any readings in the shop yesterday. Didn't mind that so much, but I fucked up in the morning. I spent so much time checking out and arranging Dead Journal that I got away late. I actually had a booking in the morning but they never showed. I have to watch this, because it seems to me that I'm starting to obsess about the wrong things. Not good.

Cranky

Gah, the day continues just like this morning.

I forgot to go places on the way into university, feel clumsy, and aggressive like I want to smash crockery with a sledge hammer. Might be the weather, which is "bright and cheerful", bah.

How I feel today...

...all...

...I have been told that it may be a touch of hayfever, but after bursting into tears for no apparent reason earlier, well who knows?

A Walk in the Dark

Didn't get home until 7:30 pm tonight. Fed the pets, and then took Peggy for a walk. Might seem like a funny thing to do in teh dark, but I'm glad I did. It was (finally) cool outside, with just a hint of rain. Peggy encountered more than one dog on the way, and left his mark where he does.

Later we cut down a bush track along a power line. As we left the lighted residential area, and my eyes adjusted to the dark, I started to relax. There's something oddly calming about walking there at night. I could see the great shadows of the trees, the white reflecting ground of the track and where the clouds weren't, the stars peeked through.

When we got home I watched an episode of Angel, the one that introduces Lorn, the karaoke demon (ep. 1 of the 2nd season). One of the reasons I always liked Angel, is that the main character has all sorts of problems, screws up a lot of the time, but prevails in the end. Yes, I know it's only a TV show (like Trek and Dr Who), but it was what I needed.