Laura Seabrook's Ramblings

Yesterday I was totally spooked - I've been letting social media get to me again and I was on the verge of a panic attack. However I'm off Google+ for a while and Facebook as well. It does make a difference when I do this, because when I get to this point I know that I'm becoming excessive in my use of of s6tuff like that and it disrupts my focus and concentration. Is this weird? Am I stupid for not coping with stuff like Google+ and facebook? This is why I don't have twitter account - it'd drive me crazy.

I think in this case it makes the difference in coping with the abrasive reviews I got on the Masters and not coping with them. There were a lot of good suggestions, but a number that claimed more or less that I just did a "cut & paste" job on the thing. The truth is, I RAN OUT OF TIME and it was an unfinished and confused draft - partly because I was using MS Word's revision function and neither I nor the person proofing it knew how to use it properly - they NEVER approved cancelled changes I made, so I had a huge mess at the end which was extremely difficult to follow. .But anyway, Social media sends me off on tangents and gets me worked up over shit. and that can't be a good thing with an anxiety disorder.

The good news for yesterday was that I experimented with importing Word documents into Scrivener, and copied 12.1 Gb of images for the revisions I need to make on my art component of my Masters. That 12.1 Gb included images for over 200 pages in bitmap and Illustrator format. It's still going.


Got it done!

The Department of Grad Studies got back to me - I've been "hanging out" for this for the last five months!

They'll give me the masters provided I make major changes  to the exegesis. Not worried about this, because I was expecting to have to make changes regardless. Tomorrow I will print the review PDF and read it thoroughly.

I finished my Research Paper yesterday and it's been dropped off at Grad Services.

Now I need to get my graphic novel printed properly for review.

I may not have been obvious but I "took October off" from the Masters. That's why I was doing so much stuff in Second Life. I did this for two reasons: I felt exhausted and stale after completing part two of Real Life Trips; and it was a form of birthday present to me. I DO enjoy Second Life, both exploring and participating socially in it. I also like the creative efforts I see there and this was a way of exploring what I might do myself.

In any case I thouroughly flaming enjoyed the break./activity. I fee refreshed and rejuvenated but now it's time to work on part 3 of RLT.  This part's a bit different than the others because it's mostly illustrated journal entries (with a comic story in the middle). You'll see soon enough.

The other thing I really need to do is get serious about the research.Have been distracted ever since I sat down to start this late January.

I keep finding excuses and diversions to avoid  doing it. Had one spurt and then, nothing. Am I afraid of this? Am I bored with it? Neither makes sense. I know what I need to do, so why not do it? Perhaps in the short  term buying new "sexy" software (like Premiere and Animation Studio) is easy to do. Creating those music videos with AVS Video editor was also easy to do. Simpler (because I've done it before) and faster. Research takes time.

Here we go again. This morning I'm NOT going to do a webcomic page /music video/ waste time on the net. In fact being "shaped" (because I exceeded my broadband quota) might be an advantage. I can post to Live Jurnal and Facebnook, yes. But try rigading the average home page of FB with such a slow connection, or have more than one tab open? No, doesn't work that well. And maybe that's a good thing.

Am about to "sort" the Studio. But not as a procrastination, because I need to find some stuff!'

Wish me luck?

Faffed about a lot today. Was going to write the script to this but just did it instead. Nice to get started again.

Am getting ready to go print the sample pages and attend my review.

I completed all four sample pages this week, which supports the idea that I can manage 3-4 pages a week. And that was without a written script - they were all in my head! Getting ready and catching the 9:05 bus!

 
Need to do another 3 before Friday.

My Studio PC is playing up again. As usual this happens when I'm working to a deadline! It was built by Kevin a few years back and I suspect it's falling apart. Applications have been freezing and Firefox for the moment has lost it's bookmarks!

Rather than battle this like made, and waste tim trying to fix it - I'll copy the files I need back to the memory stick and move to the RecRoom PC for the duration.