Back from the City

I'm back from Sydney.

Overall it was a good trip. I went down with fiery_ichor and stayed at zelieq's place. We had some dinner on Enmore Rd, and later went to Wake the Dead.

Had difficulty enjoying myself at WTD - not because it was a bad club or anything (it's not, it's quite good) but I just couldn't get into much. I drank 4 champagnes; 3 shandies (beer + lemonade); 1 beer and a cola. Don't normally drink that much but just too stressed lately. I threw an ashtray about, phased out several times, and felt very queasy on the dance floor. I danced to maybe six tracks (including PDA by Interpol) and almost threw up on the dance floor at one point. I cried in my beer, and on Roderick's shoulder.

But I really needed to go, and would go again, but sometimes I feel like I'm living my life inside of a Smith's song.

Live my life like a (modified) Smith's Song

I am the sun
and the air
of a shyness that is driving me insane
I am the moon and heir
of nothing in particular

You shut your mouth
how can you say
I go about things the wrong way
I am human and I need to be loved
just like everybody else does

I am the sun
and the air
of a shyness that is driving me insane
I am the moon and heir
of nothing in particular

You shut your mouth
how can you say
I go about things the wrong way
I am human and I need to be loved
just like everybody else does

There's a club if you'd like to go
you could meet somebody
  who really loves you
so you go, and you stand on your own
and you hurt on your own
and you go home, and you cry
and you want to die

When you say it's gonna happen "now"
well, when exactly do you mean?
see I've already waited too long
and all my hope is gone

You shut your mouth
how can you say
I go about things the wrong way
I am human and I need to be loved
just like everybody else does

For an explanation, see Hypergraphia. You find the original at Oldie Lyrics.

The ongoing CAR saga...

When Salli and I came back from Sydney tonight, I got her to drive me to my car, which is parked behind Bunnings at Glendale.

I had my spare keys with me, and tried to start her. No go. The motor turned but she wouldn't start. I think the battery is losing it's charge too quickly. It may be that there isn't enough water in it. But it was already dark and I couldn't tell for sure. Salli drove me back home where I fed my pets.

Tomorrow, I'll phone the bus company and see if my original keys were handed in (they were shut over the w/e). If they have been I'll walk to Edgeworth and collect them. Either way, I'll catch a bus to Glendale and see what can be done in daylight. It may be that all it needs is some distilled water in the battery (please, Goddess, please!) and I can drive it home. Otherwise I'll phone the NMRA (again) and try and get it going.

If it starts, I'll driver her home. If not, I'll get her towed home (which should be free of charge for the distance). I think maybe, either way, I should take the bus in to the uni on Tuesday morning for my counselling appointment, because maybe I'll actually get there on time.

not coping - not coping - not coping - not coping - not coping - not coping. please make this end.

Goddess help me, I just can't cope any more.