Storms again

Just woke up. Outside it's pouring down with rain.

Last night the ABC gave out a warning for severe rains and wind.

Forecast for Tuesday evening
Isolated showers tending scattered in higher parts with sleet/snow possible above 1000 metres in the evening. Winds increasing to fresh west to Northwest inland, and strong south westerly near the coast.

Forecast for Wednesday
Early rain, then easing to scattered showers in the morning. Cold, with snow/sleet about higher ground early. Moderate to fresh west to Northwest winds inland, easing. Fresh south to south west winds in the east, reaching strong to gale force near the coast at first, easing in the afternoon. Dangerous surf conditions.

Staying home today. Now back to bed.

Meltdown

Been a "nervous wreck" for the last 3 days. Had some sort of "visual migraine" on the Sunday, and haven't been the same since.

I kept getting "bright spots" and "rainbows" in my vision, and seeing became very difficult. I also felt very queasy, and confused. Had to set in a dark room for a while with music playing.

Monday evening I lost my mailboxes. There were some corrupted sectors on one of the drives and bits of the accounts went missing, and my Powerband password stopped working. The last backup I did of those was back in February. The last day or so (when I haven't just felt 'immobilised') I've been trying to recover deleted files that got deleted when I was attempting to restore stuff on Thunderbird.

Powerband - the ISP that Kevin and I go through - has been sold to some group called Koala Telecom and they changed the billing period and method. A bill arrived in the mail on Friday with only my name on it - the account was specifically in both our names. In addition my Powerband password stopped working for my e-mail so I currently can't e-mail out (unless I do dial-up with Hunter Apana).

I said on Friday that I'd get back to my potential employer with a list of award rates, but with my e-mail client not working and no e-mail out that was difficult. Also, what I am I supposed to do with this - bargain myself down? There's a big difference between award rates as a sales person and library tech. I couldn't get through to Amy (my key worker) on Monday as she was off sick but we spoke today and she'll sort this out. That's something at least.

Haven't been able to keep track of accounts when it came to shopping, joint shopping with Kevin. Neither of us have been able to do that in the last week, and it's been another thing on my mind. I can't handle credit, and not knowing who owes what to whom amounts to the same thing. Also, the change in the Powerband account has made that more variable. Kevin and I have come to an agreement on writing off the last two weeks, and starting from scratch again.

But yesterday it all came to a head. I saw my counsellor at Hunter health and I had a lot to talk about. She thought that maybe the stress of the storm and the uncertainty of all this stuff was getting to me. Just not coping with it. Afterwards I went and saw Spiderman 3 at Glendale for a bit of "time out". That was OK (it's a good film for a Spiderman fan), though afterwards I got upset when someone in a newsagents used the wrong pronoun with me.

Gah - not coping too well. This stuff will probably all get resolved, but it's like a huge wall of static for me at the moment.