WTF?

Kevin woke me up about 11:45pm to say that he was going to Kurri, and shortly afterwards got picked up by Michelle's mum (I think). Only awake now.

Huh?

argh

can't seem to get back to sleep

am very pissed off

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i feel angry and let down this morning.

kevin said he'd be there for me when peggy'd be ill, when he was dying

he wasn't, the wanker

and i din't know what to do

and peggy died

and now he's pissed off again

dying inside

been wrestling with thoughts i don't want this morning.

wanted to go down to sydney and get horribly drunk this weekend

can't do that now, stuck with dogs, kevin pissed off

wanted to die, but that won't bring peggy back

nothing will

 

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can do it

failure fukn failure

reading

feel totally drained and empty. did another mermaid reading like before. I got:

A new dawn
The worst is now behind you and positive new experiences are on the horizon
Blessed Change
A major life change brings you great blessings
Self-Forgiveness
Let go of old guilt, and remember that you're god's perfect child

shit knows, i need the last.