Spring Equinox
Sep. 21st, 2004 05:00 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
laura_seabrookIt's Spring again. I could tell by the way the Drakes keep jumping on the Ducks. I could tell by the thunder and lightening and hail storms that come. I could tell because I feel better in myself.
I went through a period of uncertainty recently. Having the car off the road for five weeks just showed how isolated I could be. I was depressed and upset about that, but the bottom line was that it was a reality to my life. And in the end it produced two decisions.
The first decision I made was to go back to university and do my "Honours".
I completed my Bachelor of Visual Arts back in 2001, after starting in 1997. It was a three year course but in that period I had a physical collapse, with too much stress and other factors. As a result I ended up on disability allowance, and went part-time. I also took a year off in the middle of it to plan and recover from a trip to Phuket. It was something I just had to do.
And now I feel ready to return to university, to do my Honours. I have a new focus on the art and theory that I intend to do. No details just yet -- I'll do that for the entrance submission -- but I'm focused on projects that have been percolating in my brain for some time, and that will involve writing two books. The TAFE course that I'm doing -- Library Science -- fits into this nicely. I enjoy library work and if I can get part time work while studying (part time), so much the better.
The second decision was to advertise for a boarder.
I'd had mixed experiences with boarders before. One shot through will I had a holiday in Melbourne. The other was a bit of a leech, leaving me poorer and wiser (though he did look after the place while I was in Phuket). That being the case, I've been hesitant to get back into a situation that could be potentially stressful and costly. However, if I had a boarder, I might have been able to maintain my car better, and when it failed, been able to get better alternative transport.
And the company, I miss that above all else. Pegasus and the other pets are one thing (and it's nice having Gabby the cat curl up on my lap) but there's no conversation, no understanding there, and I miss that. I did have plans for a friend from Western Australia to move in, but that just hasn't happened for one reason or another.
The first step I've taken is to advertise in a magazine called POLARE, put out by the Gender Centre in Sydney. Here's the copy I used:
The thing is, this is a commitment to no longer living alone (but NOT at any cost). We'll see who the Goddess sends me. The thing about this though, is that I'm planning for the future again. My TAFE course was a start of that, or course, but this is with optimism of what the future might bring.
And ain't that what Spring is about. Making new plans, changing furniture, being optimistic about where one's going? I certainly hope so.
I went through a period of uncertainty recently. Having the car off the road for five weeks just showed how isolated I could be. I was depressed and upset about that, but the bottom line was that it was a reality to my life. And in the end it produced two decisions.
The first decision I made was to go back to university and do my "Honours".
I completed my Bachelor of Visual Arts back in 2001, after starting in 1997. It was a three year course but in that period I had a physical collapse, with too much stress and other factors. As a result I ended up on disability allowance, and went part-time. I also took a year off in the middle of it to plan and recover from a trip to Phuket. It was something I just had to do.
And now I feel ready to return to university, to do my Honours. I have a new focus on the art and theory that I intend to do. No details just yet -- I'll do that for the entrance submission -- but I'm focused on projects that have been percolating in my brain for some time, and that will involve writing two books. The TAFE course that I'm doing -- Library Science -- fits into this nicely. I enjoy library work and if I can get part time work while studying (part time), so much the better.
The second decision was to advertise for a boarder.
I'd had mixed experiences with boarders before. One shot through will I had a holiday in Melbourne. The other was a bit of a leech, leaving me poorer and wiser (though he did look after the place while I was in Phuket). That being the case, I've been hesitant to get back into a situation that could be potentially stressful and costly. However, if I had a boarder, I might have been able to maintain my car better, and when it failed, been able to get better alternative transport.
And the company, I miss that above all else. Pegasus and the other pets are one thing (and it's nice having Gabby the cat curl up on my lap) but there's no conversation, no understanding there, and I miss that. I did have plans for a friend from Western Australia to move in, but that just hasn't happened for one reason or another.
The first step I've taken is to advertise in a magazine called POLARE, put out by the Gender Centre in Sydney. Here's the copy I used:
Eccentric middle-aged pagan goth post-op M2F artist/writerIt's rather specific isn't it? That's deliberate, because it should weed out a lot of people (assuming anyone applies). And the trans element, well, after due consideration, I think that would be best. There are some things you can talk about only to someone else who's experienced it. We'll see who replies.
tired of living alone, seeks intelligent intuitive (but
stable) non-smoking trans boarder with sense of humour, for
financial assistance and companionship (don't want much do
I?). Household on outskirts of Newcastle near bush and
freeway with big backyard and two spare rooms. Pets ok,
provided they don't attack/kill other pets (I have dog, cats
& ducks). Suit persons with own transport, or studying at
TAFE/Uni.
The thing is, this is a commitment to no longer living alone (but NOT at any cost). We'll see who the Goddess sends me. The thing about this though, is that I'm planning for the future again. My TAFE course was a start of that, or course, but this is with optimism of what the future might bring.
And ain't that what Spring is about. Making new plans, changing furniture, being optimistic about where one's going? I certainly hope so.
