Beltaine Make-over

I had a good time for Beltaine, last Monday night.

The good time was important, because as the pagan festival got closer and closer, I was becoming more and more depressed about it. See, Beltaine's  an old country springtime celebration, giving thanks that Winter is over and that Spring, with all the fertility, creativity, and growth. The livestock would start breeding, and adult folk would have their thoughts turn to fornication and procreation, themselves.

Only lately, I hadn't felt very fertile, creative or growing - and when my thoughts turn to sexual and social intercourse, they've tended to make me feel depressed. My self-esteem has been very low of late. Before my Perth trip this year I almost liked myself -- and yeah, I do (mostly) , but that ol' black hole of a heart I have just drags me down time and time again, if I do nothing to push against it.

On the Monday, I just happened to be in at NUSA when I bumped into miss_judith and spencerkaiden. Judith just happens to have the same reference book as me: Wheel of the Year: myth and magic through the seasons  by Teresa Moorey & Jane Brideson (Hodder & Stoughton, ISBN 0-340-68386-4).  It's a good guide to the (Wiccan / Witchy / Pagan) meanings of the eight festivals of the year. Anyway, I sort of got a bit upset, because there was one thing that I was focussed on, and had hoped would happen by Beltaine, and it hadn't.

Anyway, Judith invited me around that night for a make-over and a bit of a "girls night". I can't remember (if ever) the last time I did something like that. I had tentatively, planned to go over to fiery_ichor (Sally's) and do some sort of ritual, but in truth my heart just wasn't in it (I think it the greatest hypocrisy  to celebrate things that you don't feel). So after contacting Sally, we cancelled that and off I went.

I'm really glad I did.

I had ice cream, I had my hair teased and played with, and styled, and a mud mask to help my face breath, and after borrowing one of Judith's dresses, a bit of a photo shoot. I've picked out the best three (see above). I think I look happy in these pics - I felt really happy at the time - something I need more of.

Thank you Judith, for a wonderful night, and maybe the best Beltaine I've had, in a long long time.

I'll be posting some thoughts about this Beltaine really soon.

Another tooth out

Had another tooth out yesterday. And that was about all I did too, all day - go to the dentist, then go home and recover.

It wasn't that bad this time around. The appointment was at Noon at Pacific Smiles. I got there at 11:45am and waited until 1:05pm before I saw the dentist. But it was all over and done with (even with cutting the bone and gums) by 1:35pm, so it took much less time (and pain) than before.

I found out today,from a follow-up phone call from Smiles that the dentist was the head dentist there, so I guess I'm in good hands (literally), especially as I get the minimum of pain as well. Got to get another one out soon as well, but I might just wait until I fully recover from this one - the socket hurts more than the cavity did!

Beltaine Musing

Beltaine Contemplation

I've posted a Beltaine Contemplation of in Rainbow's End. I'd rather list the link here than x-post.

Quiz Meme

I got this from vonriga:

NINE FIRSTS

First Best Friend(s): Peter Callega from West Midland
First Pet: Snoopy, the family dog
First Piercing: Left Ear
First Crush: Diana Rigg
First CD: Pet shop Boys - Disco2
First Car: Datsun Sunny I co-owned with Lee
First Job: Apprentice in a furniture factory (lasted 1 day).
First Love: Carol
First Stuffed Animal: Orange Dinosaur that travelled with me on the Indian Pacific from Perth to Sydney

EIGHT "HAVE YOU EVERS"

Have you ever dated one of your best friends: no
Have you ever been arrested: no
Have you ever skinny dipped: yes
Have you ever been on TV: yes
Have you ever kissed someone and then regretted it: yes
Have you ever had a sex dream about someone you knew: yes

SEVEN THINGS YOU'RE WEARING

A nightshirt
Spectacles
Nail Polish
Sweat
Dust
Some guilt
Fatigue

SIX THINGS YOU'VE DONE LAST

Last Car Ride: From Charlestown (Dentist) to Home
Last Movie Seen:  Serenity
Last Phone Call:  From the Dentist's
Last CD Played: Shakespeare's Sister - Hormonally Yours
Last Bubble Bath: A week and a half ago (but also in 15 minutes)
Last Time You Cried: Today

FIVE FAVOURITE THINGS IN NO ORDER

Pegasus
Gabby
Xena
My Home
My Car

FOUR PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL [ALMOST] ANYTHING TO

Liz
Judith
Jenny
Alethea

THREE HOLIDAY DESTINATIONS

Tuntable Falls
Perth
Phuket

TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE

Have some more (pleasurable) sex
Write two books

ONE THING YOU REGRET

Not getting to see the Elephant Farm while I was in Phuket.

Felt like this recently, too...

You connect with pain mentally, your mind analyses every thing around you, your brain never stops
even when you are sleeping, that is why you usually have headaches, another problem you have which is insomnia, you can't sleep easily, you have to think at least one hour before you sleep, you are responsible and creative, you don't trust people easily that is why you like to do every thing by yourself, the best cure for you is to calm down and slow down things in your life, you don't have to carry the whole world on your shoulders.


How do you connect with Pain? (updated)
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