Feeling Fucked up

[laura_seabrook]

I think I had a major tonic-clonic seizure Wednesday morning.

I had all the symptoms of one when I woke up: confusion, migraine, "pins and needles" sensation all over my skull, and bits of my language and memory seemed to be missing. I've had periods of brain fog for the last few days, and deep feelings of depression. I may have fucked up by confusingly making comments over in tranny_rage (which I've now left) because certain words just weren't there for me. I realised something was very wrong yesterday when I couldn't remember my mother's middle name (it's Jacqueline).

Felt a lot lot better this morning. Thing is, this isn't the first time this has happened recently. At the end of May I was getting obsessive-compulsive over a silly issue regarding a local mailing list (people were only mailing minutes as Word attachments), and stressing out, and having similar symptoms, only I was afraid to post about most of them here.

Feeling fucked right now. This morning I'm going to an in-world meeting of gimpgirl in Second Life. Just as well I guess.

Comments

[krauthamster.livejournal.com]

I may've had heat-related mini-stroke a few times in my life (I know it's different- don't know if yours is exertion-related?

Am wishing you're not afflicted with any more of such episodes!

[laura-seabrook.livejournal.com]

me too.

[rashelleym.livejournal.com]

How much you pushed yourself to carry the story thread is seems visible to me in the webcomic pages you did around that time (and I'm guessing it was previous to the seizure). It could illustrate an analytic-psychology "active imagination" session perfectly, down to the (marvelously illustrated) "next thing that happens" -- or, rather, the deliberate illustration of it. Very raw and powerful to my eye. Is it particularly worrisome because it happened while sleeping?

[laura-seabrook.livejournal.com]

its a worry.