Laura Seabrook's Ramblings

The last two weeks I've been retiring to bed by 8:30pm at the latest. Been feeling exhausted for no particular reason. Did that last night, thoigh I'd been out all day and had good reasons (after counsellor and G.P.) to feel exhausted.  But I couldn't satay asleep. Did the worse thing you can do when you can't sleep - jump on the computer and browse the net / LJ / Facebook.

Then I went on Second Life for a bit. hadn't done that - without a purpose like making webcomics - for some time. There was a friend or two I went looking for, because SL is a lot more fun with friends, but they were "sleepwalking" in SL. That is, logged on but either AFK or had fallen asleep at the other end. Sigh. Made an abortive attempt to go dancing, but my heart really wasn't in it. Read the last volume of PLUTO which was satisfying, and then (at about 3:45am) finally fell asleep. Slept in to 7:30am, which is unusual for me, and had the weirdest waking dreams.

I know that deep down (or really, just under the surface) the cause of all this is HUGE ANXIETY over my Masters confirmation. It's next week, and I feel "behind schedule", at a loss, and lost.

The possibility of going on a Housekeeping course just fell through.

I had a message left for me on Thursday by my case worker but it seemed to indicate that the course started tomorrow, would be three days a week for three weeks. But on that day I couldn't get through to my case worker, so I had no details and didn't know if I was in or not. Not knowing's been eating away at me. I was quite prepared to do what it took on short notice, but no notice has just kept me in a state of stress.

Got a message this morning him. I missed out on a spot. Argh. It was one reason I couldn't get to sleep last night. Very annoying.