I just had an attack of road rage. For a while I absolutely
wanted to ram another car full of teenage yobs and kill them. I'm not exagerating - that's
exactly what I felt.
( The Story )I'm calm now, but this has scared the living shit out of me.
I feel terribly terribly unstable. I don't know if all of a sudden I'll feel absolute fits of depression and grief, or uncontrolable rage. The last time I felt the latter, I chased idiot kids up street with a wheelie bin axle. I don't want to be this way. It worries me.
I know what sort of day this is, 'cause I've had 'em before. It's the sort of day when, if you phone friends or go to see them, they're not there; when you go to a counsellor, they're booked out for two weeks. I had originally come out to do the RTA and print of some more Tarot flyers at the uni. Maybe I should just go home.
I just feel absolutely fucked today. What's happening to my emotions.